Every time I try to type the word “blog” today it comes out “glob,” which makes me giggle. That I suddenly keep mistyping the word is somehow fitting for what I want to tell you today, which is that I am no longer going to write posts here.
Now that I’m writing this post, I realize you probably already saw this day coming. I could do a whole cutesy “It’s not you, it’s me” bit, but you know that already. My mom and I have this joke when I want to transition to say something about myself. Instead of beating around the bush, I jump in saying, “Well, that’s enough about you, let’s get back to me.” I suppose that’s what a blog is all about, right? Back to ME.
Writing a post announcing the end of the blog does seem overly dramatic in part, but on the other hand I don’t like the idea of people coming here expecting more posts when that’s not my plan right now. I guess I don’t feel sad because I know that whenever I want to, I can start something new. That’s the beauty of the Interwebs!
I began blogging in 2005 when I had only just learned what a blog was. I called it Aimless Digressions, and that title truly represented the topics I wrote about, which spanned from what it was like to live in DC to the new camera I wanted to buy. I really enjoyed playing with that new toy for that year or two that only my friend Caroline read the blog.
Then I got pregnant, graduated school, moved to England, had my baby, and moved back to DC all within one year. I didn’t write very often then, but in those years that my dad, my mom, and my uncle Joe started reading the blog, I began to find my writing voice and enjoyed keeping my family updated on what was happening overseas and back again. I enjoyed having a digital baby book too.
Then we moved to Boston. I felt lonely in my new role as a stay at home mom to a newborn and toddler–and judged for my choice to stay home–in a new (and freezing cold) town. I wanted a place to talk about motherhood and how it was different from my expectations. My good friend and first reader Caroline suggested I use my free time to write more. So I dusted off the blog and gave it a new name. I am grateful to her for encouraging me find my writing voice.
In the years following that change, I have welcomed old friends here and even met some lovely strangers who have become friends. I’ve had some great opportunities come my way because of it, like our commercial, and I’m grateful for the writing connections it has granted me.
Though I’m saying goodbye to this space, I do see myself finding another home for my essays on motherhood. Maybe some day I will even work toward that book that is clawing its way out of my hazy memories. So much of creativity is ephemeral, and I am trying to take my time in creating a new space that will define me as well as “the lone home ranger” did for the past 3+ years.
Whatever I write, I know those posts will contain fewer personal details of our lives. Our little girls are growing up, and though I’ve enjoyed cataloging their beginning days here, I want to give them back their privacy. I decided to stop posting here when Vivi turned six because it seemed like a big milestone.
Thank you so much for listening to my rants, both coherent and incoherent, and for sharing your stories with me. I would love to keep in touch so we can keep chatting about what we’re reading, and eating, and whatnot. I have more to say to you! Let’s keep in touch on Instagram and Twitter. I will leave the blog up so you (and I!) can come back to use some of the recipes from time to time.
Thanks for the laughs! I will miss y’all.
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